Beast Of Burden

I peek into the darkness to try to find the light

The means of a correction

I'm just trying to survive.

The tunnel is long and looming

Still, I try to live

To outrun the demons my mind won't allow me to forgive.

All has turned against me

Faded to such black

Still, I keep a steady pace despite the lack of path.

Just one glimmer

One lantern of hope

That will make me see the point behind why it is I chose to cope.

This is not survival

Not living in spite of pain

I believe to see it as winning

Fighting through the need to change.

Long and lonely is a winding road

Running on empty

I want to think it proves my worth

My strength

Even through this curse.

A burden ever chronic

Please, shadows, just consume.

But they leave me be

Pressing piercing

Never quite perceived.

The veil is thinning

A lesson gone unlearned

For though a tunnel might seem long and dark

Where chaos seems to lurk.

It rests between my eyes, this shade

This cast of doomsday I forsake

My mind is the real guilty party,

What forces me to keep on going

Anywhere but where I need to be

The light can only exist through me.

A lantern in the dark

What is turned away from plays its part.

The tunnel is my path.

I was always just running from who and what I am

The distinction of who I would not allow myself to become.

A beacon

I chose burden

Chronic

I chose deviation.

By choosing not to accept the truth

I became the darkness

I became the doom.

No outer light will guide the way

When it is you who you choose not to see.

I am the light

I am the dark

...

...It all resides in me…

Even from the start.