FREAK

Not complicit

Rather rot from sickness, than listen

Distrust any system, except my nervous

Stop touching, I feel your hands judging

It's making me want to rip off my skin

I don't fit in a system meant to be

So consistent

There's no correcting this fitment

Clenched fist, ripped skin

From hitting my reflection

No matter how many times I perform my dissection

I can't find the source of my corruption

My hands are shaking, as they dig in me

It's so frustrating

What's wrong with me

Fucking freak

They speak

With just their eyes

And like lighter fluid, it ignites me

They watch the freak-

Freak out

Fucking freak

They speak

As I'm burning

Screaming

Melting

Flailing

Dance freak

They speak

Critique me, it's nothing

Compared to the intensity

These identities that live in me

Speak to me

I hear nothing but their voices

Repeating the same things

Telling me

Everything that I'm deserving

That all this hurting was meant for me

And It's never enough

I need to be crushed

Till I can't get back up

But still

I persevere

Limping through the days

Holding myself up with what I hold dear

Swaying away everything they say

But I'm so weak

I can't keep them off for long

They grab me

Hold me down

I wish I could die

They hold open my eye lids

I'm screaming

With their nails they carve words into my eyes

I'm flailing in pain

Trying to break from their grip

Everyone is watching

But they can't see what I'm resisting

The memories are all coming, the rage is fuming, the hate is consuming,

I bite any hand that comes near me

They just see

A freak