Hypocritical

Weight loss isn’t something that I talk much about. As I’ve felt that it’s sort of a touchy subject for everyone I know. Most of my friends, family, and other such people I know have problems with it. It’s been difficult for reasons. Most of the reasons are that I’m a hypocrite for wanting to lose weight. My goal was to walk eighty-two pounds by the end of the year or by next year.

The idea of losing that much weight is daunting. I’ve had a few times where I wanted to stop it. To just not get up early in the morning and walk for two hours and thirty minutes on my days off. And I am doing my best to walk a lot at work. Which sometimes works but sometimes doesn’t. I’ve put myself into a deficit as well. Making sure that I don’t always overeat. Because I like the food that I really want. But also, because I’ve done a whole lot of emotional eating. Maybe just eating because I’m bored and want something to do. A thing that I’ve been avoiding for the best part of a month or so.

I’ve been doing more walking than I thought I would be doing. Like 18 thousand steps. Twenty-three steps have been my biggest step amount in the past few weeks. It’s been a real rush to want to walk. To want to do more than I have been doing as well.

My snacking has also gotten under control in these past few weeks. Sure, I still want to eat some of my snacks. But I’ve been pacing myself at what rate I eat them. How much I eat. And when I eat them as well. Swapping them with foods that are way better for me. I do my best not just snack on a whole lot of cake. Or a whole lot of cookies that I’ve really wanted to snack on. As well as trying to eat more portioned meals. Stuff that I either make myself or is made by my mom.

It’s been pretty good so far. I haven’t eaten more than my deficit in a long time. Which I feel is a giant win in comparison to where I was before. I even swapped some more stuff with lower calorie things. Like having grilled chicken strips wrapped with lettuce instead of flour tortillas. Or eating with keto bread, keto hot dog buns, and keto hamburger buns. Eating more salad and lettuce than I had before.

It’s worked so far. I’ve eaten way less than I normally have done so. Using portion sizing for most of the foods that I eat. Like chips and such. It’s worked pretty well all things considering. I also have eaten more Greek yogurt than I normally do. Like 3/4ths cup Greek Yogurt with a cup of blueberries. I cut out soda from my diet as well. It’s going alright despite how big of a headache I had afterwards. From lack of caffeine. And I’ve also been eating Frozen Yogurt pops as well.

I’ve started to see some results in my face. Like how much my double chin has been shrinking since I started. It’s something that I absolutely adore each time that I look at myself in the mirror. Along with another thing that has been steadily dropping in this entire month or so. My weight. It’s not down to my target weight just yet. I really want to be 110 pounds by the end of the year. But it is getting there. I was 192 pounds when I started this weight loss journey. Now I’m 169 pounds. It’s not all that exciting, I know, but to me it’s the world. Though I won’t be weighing myself anytime soon. I’ll be doing that next month on April 25th.

Hopefully I’ll be down in the fifties by then. Wish me luck.