Chapters from Life

Feeling emotional in public, it wasn't something He would like to expose, especially in a private course where He is supposed to be the one who teaches and the one who leads. However, in these circumstances, he had no choice but to attend the class. He passed what He passed, but He got no time to make it through as for His biological function and neurons to smoothe to take pause and to let body transform into happier state and by His example You can also deeply and truly recognize this kind of situation. Maybe sometimes You are even greater in masking it not because you are smarter or more intelligent but because being aware of abusive environment You have no choice but to learn and gather knowledge that may or might not be useful in exact difficult occassions what kind of occassions I actually talk about. The one we highly sensitive empaths almost hardly we do talk about and share because there are so many of such situations in our life that we are just happy when we can handle it do the whole that need to be done and just get away with the mind clean transform forgetting that something like that even had an existence and most of us will need to go through such cicles until it is gonna create discomfort in our body nervous system and accumulated burst of emotions of any kind that will need more time to digest analyze to spend with ourselves and nervous system and truly admit yes it had happened and it might be after a very long period of time we are ready to reveal even just to ourselves as if the healing wanted us to notice every kind of abusive torture we went through not to make it harder but to notice that each element of our daily being is the whole foundation that gets unwell while we have no other choice than tolerate such behaviour why we cant do nothing more than practice while facing such behaviours because we wont be able to remove bad behaviour from people and we wont be able to remove bad people from this planet quite the opposite they do work each hour of the day to make our life harder and we actually no matter the harm we keep on healing them and making their life better until we get so bruised so terribly ruined by all of them that we need learn the same kind of egoism as they are exposing easily daily and i can call my first day of healing when i finally without guilt can focus only on my own life my own experience distancing myself from all these zombies around their attacks they cant touch me more because i learn how to come back to myself my life and choose me over their games plays. Still in this life we need to go through so many discomforting situations having job that is priceless where you serve another but you earn less than zero besides inner richness and the fact that you truly help is something not only You should be proud but each individual who encounter your real true empathic heart Unfortunately or fortunately the only person who is proud of who you are on Earth is your animal another stranger animal God Angels,Pope some Priests and Monks, children, birds, insects, cats, horses etc. maybe some strangers but mostly you need go through massive amount of zombies and whether you are doing great or not it does affect you especially if you are doing better financially or especially if you are making huge progress they will more likely keep on punishing you for nothing without getting to know even the base of where your work starts from daily while you are oki with the idea that you cant change Morons and connection with them no matter your best intention practices yes exactly if not some practices it wouldnt be even possible to go on but there are moment in life when its too much for too long and when it could be lighter but its heavier not because you are not doing your best but quite the opposite because whole the rest judging rest never have enough and pushed you into a territory which you have already created innovative new approaches but because they havent even discovered the door or the key to even see the door to know that before the path will be fully opened you need keys then you need know which door to open and most people dont follow basic rules principles which are often more important than the higher level practices or advanced one whoever and whatever call it this way doesnt actually discovered half of it yet truly available for free in every good corner where people from real heart empathy and love give free healing secrets but to know all to gather all might be not enough to conqer the zombies because zombies are in massive amount of people they are like brutalist and they take every right to make your life misery and hell just as they dont know other kind of being on earth or reason for their happiness comes only when you get more painful life experiences so especially before something you truly care for they will bring you sadness depression horrible mind ignorance just to simply frustrate you make you cry look weak emotional in front of another but if they think it will matter as something weak or someone weak for real truth human that knows from where it came from or from who it came from someone who feels sense what one goes through to make it all happen to bring the best kind of healing experience knolwedge to the one in need but also to morons who are there to put you in doubt to put you in conflict because thats who they truly are and no amount of help compassion love will ever change the way they truly are. You can just shift them occassionally but it wont feel natural normal real it will always had a double surface that will never put you in peace of the mind and this is where you can start to make real order in your life around or with people notice the peace that is taken away before it even settle in your brain for your body mind to accomodate new healthier state if its entirely disturbed no matter what it will had no chance to connect so you need go beyond all Alone even in the horse year you will notice being with people things are done for a moment then they crush even faster stronger becoming bigger chaos and nerve wrecking disonans so where and with who you want to walk now alone in peace thinking its loneliness instead notice peace harmony happiness with whole environment in silence or engaging with all kind of people feeling moments that can not last longer than even hour in peace and harmony i think the answer and many other answer arriving on its own through the wrong paths wrong people to the better being better future but definitely not smoother not easier as long as Morons are out there and they will be always here gathering with more and more moaning to distract you from who you are and from who you are becoming and it will squize tears out of you with their words like knife with their words like the most painful punches with their words to weaken and damage every nerve but they also dont realize the power of women and what they have already created and brought on earth to protect to save to heal from to rebuild .....to become who you were in the best form and in the newest natural relaxed way of your own being not to prove the doubting unconsciousness but to live your life freely as the Best !